Heyy Tumblrians!! long time no see… :D how’s life..? just logged in to check whether there is any cool stuffs around :P hehhehe ^^ anyway since i’m here, i want to make another “memory deposit” for today activities ^^
ok here we go… 1st thing 1st..
i woke up in the morning because i had to use the bathroom… (for no.1)
and then… i spent about 2-3 hours to practice a musical performance to be used at tomorrow’s “prom night”.. (which later tonight was decided-to-be-canceled due to my other schedule for tomorrow night :| what a waste xD hahhaha… *i want to personally apologize 2 my pal, Bobby..)
after that i had my lunch time ^^ hehehe eating “soto lamongan” :D tasty!! i love this food… (well along with other foods… :P technically i love all food ^^ hahaha)
in the afternoon i took a moment to chatting with my friends via black berry messenger… (it was my unrelated-twin, my wonder-a-lot sist, and my fav rose ^^) nothing really special though… just some regular chatting ^^ hehehe
anyway in the evening, i spent most of my time practicing the choir which is going to be held 2 days from today… :) it has only been my second practice… -_______- i still have to learn soooo many T________________T sob… though i was having a lot of fun :) i spent some time (before going to the church) at my fav rose’s house (her house was kinda an assembly point) :) checked their 2 brand new puppies… so CUTE btw… xD
about my fav rose? no question ^^ she still as beautiful as ever… the blue navy shirt she was using, became even more beautiful when was being wore by her… ^^ (i might hadn’t seen anyone else uses her shirt… but i believe whoever that person is, she still will look better ^^)
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anyway ^^ that’s for today :) i’m beat.. i need some sleep ^^ hahahaha..
until next time then… :)
long time no-tumblring :)
today is fun :) i saw my fav rose… she was as beautiful as she used to be, she is and she will be… i’m happy to see her smiling back there… :) tho… it wasn’t for me at all… ^^
*well… i might have been growing feelings for her… one hole-deep at a time.. XD hahhaa…* this section is hidden.. :P
not much to say after a long absence… :) until next time then…
wohooooo… last day of July… :) lots happened in this month ^^ anyway.. i’m not going to review a month’s worth of stuffs… :P
so here it is…
today i start my day to go to church ^^ it’s a usual Sunday morning service, it was good :) i saw my fav rose today ^^ a lot… :) she was chosen (for she is the leader of my iD youth-group) to make a recorded speech for my church’s birthday celebration (which will occur on the 8th i think)
she was wearing a dark blue navy shirt ^^

as beautiful as ever… :) (well… she can use any color, and finds me froze by amazement the next second after i see her…)
though her beauty is not the only thing that amazes me… and today she once again proved it to the world that she is a confident, wonderfully smart, elegant, kind woman with a motherly heart…
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and later in the afternoon, i met her again @ the basketball court :) (i’d never succeeded to persuade her to play :|)…
she was wearing purple T-shirt :) so beautiful…

lovely ^^
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anyway… later tonight, is one of my friend (ko andreas) birthday-feast-celebration (don’t know all the word -______-)… and she was there!!!! ^^ hahahahaa and she was sitting right in front of me…
okay i don’t want to exaggerate, but… free delicious meal, with all my best sists and bros + her, and i can look at her anytime i wanted… (and she smiled a lot tonight..) this day couldn’t get any better… ^^
she was using an orange shirt ^^ the exhaustion from the previous activities are suddenly gone after seeing her there… :)

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well… it’s pretty much what had been happened to me today :) truly one of the best days of my entire life.. (really)
later in the evening though… i had been given another advice from the person to whom i entrust all my secrets to… and it was about my feelings for my fav rose… “maybe you should stop”… it bummed me very much… :’) not because of the not-so-supportive words… but perhaps something inside me already knows it from the very beginning…
luckily, later (around 30 minutes before i start typing this) i realized one thing which had been forgotten (by me)… my true intention to my fav rose.. not for having her… (i know i’m unworthy + she deserves the best of the best… as she is the actual BEST of the bests…)
i was reminded that… i just want to make her smile ^^ especially when i’m around :) i want to be one of the reasons of her smiles… even it’s not about me, nor for me…
so now i’m relieved :) i truly am ^^ well this time, my thought saved me from an excruciating pain… ^^ it’s not so bad to be a deep thinker, i guess..
well it is pretty much what’s been happening to me today ^^
i’m off to bed now :)
nite…
a new day… a new week…
a few say… i was a lil’ sick…
though frail… i may be…
your smile… is the only thing i wanna see..
-_______- i really bad at poems xD hahahahhaa..
nothing much happened today :) regular day, with no progress on the schedule of my thesis-final-test… :( lately i have been doing nothing at all *hitmyheadtothewall*
fortunately i still have that new-old-book :) read it again today ^^ i think i’m going to finish it in about 2 days :) not much as a thick book ^^ however it has many good points O_O some i had heard from somewhere else, but there are still lots remained in that book ^^…
the book itself said to be translated to 20 languages… so i guess perhaps you had heard of it… this is the picture of the cover:

it’s a good book… content-wise ^^ though perhaps some of you had already known it (because the book itself is considerably outdated by now xD the 3rd “sequel” of the book had been published ^^)
btw i miss my fav rose ^^ “nut-ally-ya” xD haahhahaha… (@her i’m sorry couldn’t find another set of words :P) miss you very very much :) just so you know ^^ hehehhee…
i’m dizzy, not feeling well, tired physically for some unknown reasons…
the only thing that cheers me up is my fav rose… she allowed me to keep several of her close-up photos, i am so happy for keeping those picts… ^^
i start my 2nd book today :) well… it’s an outdated book actually… but so far it has been a great book to read :) i learned a lot from that book :) can’t wait to read it again ^^ it turns out reading is a very interesting activity… :) thanks to someone who introduced me to this world ^^ (that’s you i’m talking about ;))
well… i’m still waiting for my yet-to-be-scheduled thesis 3rd test… :)
i haven’t played a lot of my piano lately… >.< i usually play when i’m home alone… for me it’s kinda a mood-killer to play when the tv is on / doors being slammed… ^^ and now there are 3 people in this house… so i havent’ found as much time as i used to, to play my clavinova :)
i miss my fav rose..
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update: just went out with some of my id-family-members (including my fav rose)… now i can’t stop smiling :) black rose.. elegant black :) <3 it… any color becomes beautiful when she wears it… believe me…
