cloveRain

27/09/2011

miss my fav rose… :(

20/09/11

Heyy Tumblrians!! long time no see… :D how’s life..? just logged in to check whether there is any cool stuffs around :P hehhehe ^^ anyway since i’m here, i want to make another “memory deposit” for today activities ^^

ok here we go… 1st thing 1st..

i woke up in the morning because i had to use the bathroom… (for no.1)

and then… i spent about 2-3 hours to practice a musical performance to be used at tomorrow’s “prom night”.. (which later tonight was decided-to-be-canceled due to my other schedule for tomorrow night :| what a waste xD hahhaha… *i want to personally apologize 2 my pal, Bobby..)

after that i had my lunch time ^^ hehehe eating “soto lamongan” :D tasty!! i love this food… (well along with other foods… :P technically i love all food ^^ hahaha)

in the afternoon i took a moment to chatting with my friends via black berry messenger… (it was my unrelated-twin, my wonder-a-lot sist, and my fav rose ^^) nothing really special though… just some regular chatting ^^ hehehe

anyway in the evening, i spent most of my time practicing the choir which is going to be held 2 days from today… :) it has only been my second practice… -_______- i still have to learn soooo many T________________T sob… though i was having a lot of fun :) i spent some time (before going to the church) at my fav rose’s house (her house was kinda an assembly point) :) checked their 2 brand new puppies… so CUTE btw… xD

about my fav rose? no question ^^ she still as beautiful as ever… the blue navy shirt she was using, became even more beautiful when was being wore by her… ^^ (i might hadn’t seen anyone else uses her shirt… but i believe whoever that person is, she still will look better ^^)

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anyway ^^ that’s for today :) i’m beat.. i need some sleep ^^ hahahaha..

until next time then… :)

27/08/11

long time no-tumblring :)

today is fun :) i saw my fav rose… she was as beautiful as she used to be, she is and she will be… i’m happy to see her smiling back there… :) tho… it wasn’t for me at all… ^^

*well… i might have been growing feelings for her… one hole-deep at a time.. XD hahhaa…* this section is hidden.. :P

not much to say after a long absence… :) until next time then…

31/07/2011

wohooooo… last day of July… :) lots happened in this month ^^ anyway.. i’m not going to review a month’s worth of stuffs… :P

so here it is…

today i start my day to go to church ^^ it’s a usual Sunday morning service, it was good :) i saw my fav rose today ^^ a lot… :) she was chosen (for she is the leader of my iD youth-group) to make a recorded speech for my church’s birthday celebration (which will occur on the 8th i think)

she was wearing a dark blue navy shirt ^^

as beautiful as ever… :) (well… she can use any color, and finds me froze by amazement the next second after i see her…)

though her beauty is not the only thing that amazes me… and today she once again proved it to the world that she is a confident, wonderfully smart, elegant, kind woman with a motherly heart…

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and later in the afternoon, i met her again @ the basketball court :) (i’d never succeeded to persuade her to play :|)…

she was wearing purple T-shirt :) so beautiful…

lovely ^^

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anyway… later tonight, is one of my friend (ko andreas) birthday-feast-celebration (don’t know all the word -______-)… and she was there!!!! ^^ hahahahaa and she was sitting right in front of me…

okay i don’t want to exaggerate, but… free delicious meal, with all my best sists and bros + her, and i can look at her anytime i wanted… (and she smiled a lot tonight..) this day couldn’t get any better… ^^

she was using an orange shirt ^^ the exhaustion from the previous activities are suddenly gone after seeing her there… :)

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well… it’s pretty much what had been happened to me today :) truly one of the best days of my entire life.. (really)

later in the evening though… i had been given another advice from the person to whom i entrust all my secrets to… and it was about my feelings for my fav rose… “maybe you should stop”… it bummed me very much… :’) not because of the not-so-supportive words… but perhaps something inside me already knows it from the very beginning…

luckily, later (around 30 minutes before i start typing this) i realized one thing which had been forgotten (by me)… my true intention to my fav rose.. not for having her… (i know i’m unworthy + she deserves the best of the best… as she is the actual BEST of the bests…)

i was reminded that… i just want to make her smile ^^ especially when i’m around :) i want to be one of the reasons of her smiles… even it’s not about me, nor for me…

so now i’m relieved :) i truly am ^^ well this time, my thought saved me from an excruciating pain… ^^ it’s not so bad to be a deep thinker, i guess..

well it is pretty much what’s been happening to me today ^^

i’m off to bed now :)

nite…

25/07/2011

a new day… a new week…

a few say… i was a lil’ sick…

though frail… i may be…

your smile… is the only thing i wanna see..

-_______- i really bad at poems xD hahahahhaa..

nothing much happened today :) regular day, with no progress on the schedule of my thesis-final-test… :( lately i have been doing nothing at all *hitmyheadtothewall*

fortunately i still have that new-old-book :) read it again today ^^ i think i’m going to finish it in about 2 days :) not much as a thick book ^^ however it has many good points O_O some i had heard from somewhere else, but there are still lots remained in that book ^^…

the book itself said to be translated to 20 languages… so i guess perhaps you had heard of it… this is the picture of the cover:

it’s a good book… content-wise ^^ though perhaps some of you had already known it (because the book itself is considerably outdated by now xD the 3rd “sequel” of the book had been published ^^)

btw i miss my fav rose ^^ “nut-ally-ya” xD haahhahaha… (@her i’m sorry couldn’t find another set of words :P) miss you very very much :) just so you know ^^ hehehhee…

23/07/2011

i’m dizzy, not feeling well, tired physically for some unknown reasons…

the only thing that cheers me up is my fav rose… she allowed me to keep several of her close-up photos, i am so happy for keeping those picts… ^^

i start my 2nd book today :) well… it’s an outdated book actually… but so far it has been a great book to read :) i learned a lot from that book :) can’t wait to read it again ^^ it turns out reading is a very interesting activity… :) thanks to someone who introduced me to this world ^^ (that’s you i’m talking about ;))

well… i’m still waiting for my yet-to-be-scheduled thesis 3rd test… :)

i haven’t played a lot of my piano lately… >.< i usually play when i’m home alone… for me it’s kinda a mood-killer to play when the tv is on / doors being slammed… ^^ and now there are 3 people in this house… so i havent’ found as much time as i used to, to play my clavinova :)

i miss my fav rose..

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update: just went out with some of my id-family-members (including my fav rose)… now i can’t stop smiling :) black rose.. elegant black :) <3 it… any color becomes beautiful when she wears it… believe me…